Past Life Fascinations

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I recently had a past life regression mini session with Angela Yadon.  In an online meeting, Angela guided me to imagine a past life with some connection to my current one.  I went to a past life where I was a cleric or in a monk in a monastery.   Brown robe with a rope tie and everything.

I entered a scene in a church, very old, gray, and cavernous.  I saw myself at the gnarled old age, bony arthritic fingers, clutching at a bench in the main room.  The scene skipped back in time to me as a child with my parents and a baby in their arms, my sister.  I was at the age of walking, but not older than 3.  My parents were talking about giving me away to the church, because of the new baby.  They couldn't feed both of us, and I was chosen to be given.  They got money for the exchange, and I became a servant of the church.  I never see them again.  The scene changes and I am back in the monastery and it is clear I have spent my whole life there.  It wasn't a good fit.  Even though I am an ecclesiastic, I am filled with self hatred and righteousness.  I try to inspire my brothers, I want them to like me, but they give me nothing but apathy.  I am a failure and I know there is something missing within me.  I have great fantasies about my brothers loving the talks I give that never come to fruition.  There were hundreds of others like me, same robe, same convictions, same food, same rooms, and yet I was very alone. The scene moves back in time again, I am younger and in my righteousness I spurn a young woman who has come to me for help.  I scorn her and say she can't be helped or isn't worthy of help.  The scene skips forward and I see the same woman, but now she is an old hag (complete with wiry hair, missing teeth, and black cloak with a hood) and I am an old man.  She has come for revenge.  She knows something about me that will damage what little reputation I have at the monastery.  She intends to harm me greatly with this knowledge, and holds some sort of proof in her hands.  I strangle her and kill her.  And I am so appalled by what I did that I hang myself in the ultimate act of my self hatred.  And the monastery and my life's work falls into ruin.  Yikes!  Glad I am in this life!

The messages I took away from this past life were that self hatred is keeping me from experiencing my worth and that other people don't decide your value.  As a result of the murder I committed, I gave my power away karmically for many lives.  The ultimate message was one of forgiveness.  

During the session, it was clear to me that the people in this story of a past life - the hag, my parents and sister, even the brothers - were people I currently know in this life.

About a week before I connected to Angela and this past life, I had a reading with David Lasocki.  I was struggling with a relationship in my life and whether and how to end it.  In the energy, it appeared to David that this person was strangling me.  I experienced fear in my body with messages like... run! do not stop!  she is going to take everything!  With the help of David and some friends, I was able to disconnect this feeling and energy.

The person in this life that I was struggling with ... was the hag in that life.  Still seeking revenge, and finding forgiveness instead.  I still had a lot of hatred in my heart to clear.  And I was avoiding it because hatred isn't one of those emotions you are supposed to feel.  Instead, with the help of these readings, I could understand its placement in my life, sit with it, and let it go.

​I am so fascinated by the energy and lessons here!

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